INSIDE INTOXICATION

I find it horrible being myself everyday. It's like I'm stuck in a free rollercoaster ride. I don't wanna die even though I'm alive. I feel alone even though I'm not. I feel like a stranger even when I'm with my family. I feel worthless and hopeless all the time.

This is hard for me because I push away people. Nobody understands because they're not me and they don't ask. I want this to end and I want a cure. I have no control over my body and so I cut to relieve. When the wounds heal I do the same thing again.

I feel nothing and useless. But sometimes, I feel so happy and very alive then later I wanted to be alone. I hide from people and I don't talk. I don't usually talk about my problems. My parents don't know anything about this.

I'm scared. This is me. This is not an ordinary mood swings. This is Bipolar. I live with this everyday. :(

STAYING STRONG!