FORBIDDEN FRIEND

An iota of sadness lingers in my mind. Longing for a long term of belongingness. I'm still wondering, why I'm over with those groupy hugs, circle of friends & etc.You know what I'm up to say? A portion in my life right now seems to drag me down. Am I a bad person to feel this kind of unbelongingness?A feeling that a certain person don't want to feel.

Yuh. I know I'm so emotional right now and it seems very hard to understand. I'm here in this spot, a rare vivid chair opposes my hesitations, my regrets, towards a certain person this past few days. It's like I'm being dumped by them(not even caring to name a few). I thought they are not those past friend of mine, but now I know they are one of them. It's very hard for me to adjust in this kind of situation, but very mean for them to understand what I'm trying to say here because they have never been involved or felt anything as to what I'm feeling right now, a mixed of anger and pressure.

And I come up into a realization that these things happens account us a message to be more faithful and courageous most of the time. I had learned to embrace God's given grace, a chance to know thyself,  to know myself ALONE.God wants me to be a full grown person with dignity..

Even if I encounter much problem these days, I know these are all God's plan.

JAI-HO